I began watching the TV show, “Touch”, this week which explores the synchronicity in life through the eyes of an autistic child who “sees” the patterns in the world and the connections between people with numbers. I also noticed synchronicity in my own life this week. Each time I read a blog by one of my sister bloggers, I found myself reading something that I needed to hear; something that was relevant to my experience this week. So, I have decided to go with the flow; to celebrate the ways in which my life has felt synchronized with those of the bloggers I follow:
Zoe at Buckwheatrisk wrote this week about being triggered by housework the same day that I was being thrown off centre by a frustrating chain of events (that lasted 4 days) with my telephone company. In a draft post that will not be finished, I was writing about how I hate when small things, such as the inability to speak to a human at a telephone company, can evoke such strong feelings of frustration and anger in me. I was writing about how I did not understand my reaction, feel that I cannot control these feelings, and hate myself when I feel that way. And then, there was Zoe writing about how situations can be triggers from early life traumas, and it helped me to be gentler with myself. It helped me to let go of the harsh way I feel about myself when I am “triggered” and to move back into a calmer place.
Pam at Notes Along The Path wrote about the power of mother love in the context of the Mother Earth’s love and gifts for all of us. Earlier the same day, I two “medicine signs” from the Mother Earth myself. When I was walking by the river at dusk, a large Red-Tailed Hawk dropped out of a tree and flew low over my head from the north side of the river to the south side. It was a treat and a gift that I consciously took note of. Then late last night, as I drove up to my home, four deer ran out on to the road 50 feet in front of me. They ran up the street, from north to south, and then veered off into the park beside my home. This morning, Pam, using a book by Jamie Sands, offered some insights on my “signs” that felt spot on. She suggested that they may indicate the need for me to move into the role of the child; to be humble; to allow myself to learn and to be playful. The new job I began a few weeks ago involves coordinating about 45 people from about 15 organizations operating across the country using skills and technologies that are new to me. It has me feeling anxious. In my calm moments, I have been telling myself to relax, enjoy the opportunity to learn, and let go of the need to be “in control”. But I am having a hard time stepping into the role of novice at this point in my life. But yesterday’s medicine signs seem to be confirming that message and that is something that I needed to hear.
Oriah at The Green Bough wrote this week about resisting the desire to speak, to be right, to convince someone else about her views or position, all of the time. As a woman who was raised “to be seen and not heard” in a time when woman were invisible or objectified, I have struggled all my life to have a voice, to speak truth to power, and to speak my truths. But, when I read her post, I knew what she meant. There are times when we are speaking, not to speak our truth, but to win an argument, to convince someone else that our beliefs are right, when we are not really being open to their views. In my new job, where we are working to build partnerships across sectors, I am going to have to cultivate my listening skills, open my mind to new ideas, and respect the views of people who approach issues from a different field of expertise than me. This message feels like a good reminder for me, and one that applies to the new millennium, where we are moving from a place of duality to a place of wholeness.
So, I would like to thank my sister bloggers, the Mother Earth, and the Universe for offering me the insights, messages and words of wisdom that I needed to hear this week! Hoh!