It is New Year’s Eve day. I have had a full holiday season; time with my kids, time with my husband, time with extended family, and time with a few close friends. I have had time away from home; time away from work; time away from phones, computers, newspapers and televisions. I have walked among snow laden trees. I have played board games with my family. I have read novels for pleasure. I have re-connected with my children. I feel rested, relaxed and restored.
Today is new year’s eve day; the last day of the year. I woke up feeling hungry for time alone; time to write; time to re-connect with my Self. It is time to move inward; to think about the year that is ending. It is time to consider the habits that do not serve me well; to acknowledge the fears and beliefs that limit me; to think about all of the feelings, habits and beliefs that I want to leave behind with the old year. It is time to focus on the new year; on the new habits I would like to practice; on the relationships I would like to develop; on the attitudes I would like to cultivate; on the life I would like to create.
For me, 2011 was a year of loss and disappointments. It was a year of grief and sadness. It was a year of letting go….of loved ones, of dreams, of illusions. It was a year of Death; a year to clear away the brush, weed the garden, clear the way for new beginnings, for a re-birth. I am ready to move on. I am ready for the new year; for a new stage in my life. I am ready to become the Crone; the woman who is separate but not alone. The woman who, freed of child-rearing and house-keeping, can serve the People with wisdom born of experience. It is time!!