New Year’s Eve – New Beginnings

It is New Year’s Eve day.  I have had a full holiday season; time with my kids, time with my husband, time with extended family, and time with a few close friends.  I have had time away from home; time away from work; time away from phones, computers, newspapers and televisions.  I have walked among snow laden trees.  I have played board games with my family.  I have read novels for pleasure.  I have re-connected with my children.  I feel rested, relaxed and restored.

Today is new year’s eve day; the last day of the year.   I woke up feeling hungry for time alone; time to write; time to re-connect with my Self.  It is time to move inward; to think about the year that is ending.  It is time to consider the habits that do not serve me well; to acknowledge the fears and beliefs that limit me; to think about all of the feelings, habits and beliefs that I want to leave behind with the old year.   It is time to focus on the new year; on the new habits I would like to practice; on the relationships I would like to develop; on the attitudes I would like to cultivate; on the life I would like to create.

For me, 2011 was a year of loss and disappointments.  It was a year of grief and sadness.   It was a year of letting go….of loved ones, of dreams, of illusions.  It was a year of Death;  a year to clear away the brush, weed the garden, clear the way for new beginnings, for a re-birth.   I am ready to move on.   I am ready for the new year; for a new stage in my life.   I am ready to become the Crone; the woman who is separate but not alone.  The woman who, freed of child-rearing and house-keeping, can serve the People with wisdom born of experience.  It is time!!

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About kp

I am a woman and a mother, a sister and a wife. I have called myself a socialist and a feminist, an environmentalist and an activist, a pagan and an atheist. But, at this stage in my life, none of these labels feel right. I am searching; trying to find an inner calm; trying to make peace with life's disappointments; trying to answer the big questions in my own small life.
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3 Responses to New Year’s Eve – New Beginnings

  1. Kim,
    The power of your rebirth brought me to tears. Look out world, here you come!
    Love always,
    Pam

    • kp says:

      Thanks Pam…we will see. I find these powerful moments come in spurts and are often followed by backward steps, but today, it feels really fine….Kp

  2. jazzminey says:

    Here! Here! I hear your conviction. It is strong and it is powerful.

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