Letting the Universe Lead

When I lost my job 2.5 years ago, a wise friend told me that she believed it happened because I was meant to move on to something new.  If that was true, she explained, there was no point in feeling angry, hurt or betrayed because it was meant to be.  I loved that idea; thinking that the Universe/God has a plan for us and that things happen for a reason.  And had things in my life taken off in some way, it would have affirmed that reality for me.  But it has been tough out there; finding my own work; finding my own funding; coming up against disappointments; running into a lot of closed doors; and not being able to find funding.  It has taken the wind out of my sails and left me feeling confused about life, and hurt and angry about losing my job all over again. 

But my wise friend only chuckles at me.  She tells me that these things are not clean and tidy; that we are meant to put ourselves out there; to try different things; to figure out what we like doing; to get guidance from the Universe by the things that don’t work out as well as by the things that do work out.  She tells me that I have to be patient; that I have to learn to read the “signs”; and that I have to have faith.  

So, I have been looking for the silver lining.  The website that I began for my non-profit organization back in September has been getting over 6oo hits a month for several months now.  I am not sure what that means but I have decided that it means that my organization is not dead yet and that I should keep writing the monthly blogs until I can figure out where this will lead me.  Meanwhile, in my new job, the one that actually pays my bills, I am writing an accessible summary report for a new research piece prepared by the leading researcher in the field that I have been working in for the last five or six years.  This is an incredible opportunity; and I just stumbled into it when I got re-hired with my former employer.  I am not sure what that means, but my wise friend believes that this “contact” is going to open doors for me; doors that may make it possible for me to make a living with my little non-profit organization some day.  

So, today, I am starting to feel that, maybe, the Universe can be trusted to put us exactly where we are meant to be, IF ONLY, we can let go and trust the messy path by which it delivers us.

Advertisements

About kp

I am a woman and a mother, a sister and a wife. I have called myself a socialist and a feminist, an environmentalist and an activist, a pagan and an atheist. But, at this stage in my life, none of these labels feel right. I am searching; trying to find an inner calm; trying to make peace with life's disappointments; trying to answer the big questions in my own small life.
This entry was posted in Healing & Compassion, Signs, God & Universe, Work Life, Writing for your life and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

4 Responses to Letting the Universe Lead

  1. Yes, I’ve noticed too that ‘on the path’ things don’t take off. It’s more like setting off–which is exactly what you’ve done. And, if I had a website with 600 hits per month, I’d post once a week or every two weeks vs. once a month. It seems to me that people are looking for what you have to say there. Write on, dear woman!

  2. Unlike Hollywood, our lives take longer than 2 hours to set the story, find the problem and then come to an impressive and fortunate ending. Our process can take days, weeks, months or years. We need to have patience and allow Someone other than ourselves to let things play out the way they are meant to. Patience and perseverance. All the best to you in all your endeavors.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s